I am not a perfect human being and I know for a fact I am not the perfect wrestler. I have a long way to go within the business, but with the encouragement of my friends and other professional wrestlers I can strive to be better than I am at the moment.
The frustrating thing about being at this point in training is the fact that another rule pops up when you least expect it. For example, you know rule 1, you find there’s a 1A to it, then much to your horror there is a 1B and not knowing that tends to lead to a right good kicking.
You won’t hear me being serious when I complain about getting a shoeing from anyone, but I think I can understand why some people tend to branch off and do their wrestling without the extreme measures of training.
However, every wrestler has a cross to bear, myself included, a time where you have to ask yourself “Do I really want to be a wrestler?”
I have to admit, sometimes when I see things I don’t agree with; it makes me question my place within the business. Most of the time though I wouldn’t be anywhere else, you see I have found out from personal experience that a love-hate relationship can build up. There are parts I would rather avoid and need to be pushed into and others I would readily say yes if I’d lost my arms and legs.
The binding factor is friendship, I believe my greatest luck is meeting some absolutely fantastic people within the wrestling scene, people who, when I see them again appear genuinely happy to see me, I likewise am genuinely happy to see them.
Sometimes people tell me that I am trying to tell people what to do with these tenets; the funny thing is that I go by the saying that you cannot change anyone in this world except yourself. No, I spend my time listening to great wrestlers and great personalities and discuss the pros and cons of the things I hear them talk about.
I’d like to think that my work here is a testament to all the blood sweat and tears every wrestler has put into their craft and that I am helping you, the reader, to understand and respect the British athlete a little more, a lot of these people are my friends and I would like you to respect them the way I do.
I know what the reality is like though, it is something that, if you are a fan, you should never know about. It would be unprofessional of anyone within the wrestling industry to allow you into the inner depths of what really goes on backstage.
Suffice to say there are fans out there, we all know them, that are so desperate to be in the know that they make things up, others become wrestlers. The problem is, they never really learn about the pain, sweat and tears bit because they live in their little comfort bubble. Hell, I think even I am pampered sometimes, when someone who has way more experience than I do imparts advice to prevent me from making the same mistakes.
I have found out recently that everyone has something to teach me, usually it is a lesson about myself and how I should treat others, I know I will not be bullied out of wrestling, I will stick up for the people I respect and because of the people I have met and worked with I am highly motivated and I will become the person I have always wanted to be.
For those who can’t be bothered to read back, my first notion for wrestling was to lose weight, a year ago I knew nothing of the way the mind had to be to, I smoked, I was obese and depressed.
I gave up smoking 3 months ago, it was a rough road, but I stayed on the course, I think with the mental discipline you need to be a wrestler, I am fitter, gone are the days of being out of breath walking around a shopping centre. I am slowly becoming the person I want to be.
I do rely on my friends to stop me from getting airs about being a wrestler and I am glad to say that, quite recently, they have actively stopped me from going above my station and upsetting people. It is good to know that people you trust are looking out for you and it is what makes a wrestling friendship a very close one.
I have had a lot to think about in recent months, I love wrestling, I rely on my friends for help and there is no shame in that, it is a start to becoming the perfect wrestler, like me or hate me, you know that I am here, you know I am wrestling somewhere and you now know I will be loving every minute of it.